The question keeps coming to my consciousness, and I can’t (in spite of all my self-distraction) make it go away. I don’t really want it to leave, but it’s a moderately scary thought to consider the reality that if I am made, even created, to do something – then I have to put down my fears and concerns and pursue it with all my being.
So, the question…
What am I, Cody James Bennett, meant to do with my life? What was I born into this world to do? If I were to thrill my Heavenly Father, if He could look upon me and say, “there is Cody, my son, in whom I am well pleased.” What would that look like?
I think about the pains in my life and how those pains may be a guide to help me make lasting changes in the world:
- My father died from alcoholism
- Raised in a single-parent family
- Lack of commitment to relationships
- Schitzophrenia
I see the magic in other people if only I give myself the time to look. Children are a blessing, and so are adults, though sometimes farther removed from the vulnerability of support. How is it that I am breathing life into others? What is it that I live for?
If I were asked (about my self) what I seem to live for, what would I have to answer? What would I like it to be?
Right now, I think the answer would be that I live for nothing inparticular – I from time to time support people & their technology and I go out to play Ultimate, or take pictures, but that I don’t have any single overarching purpose for my life. When I think about it, the thought that immediately comes to mind about what I would like it to be is thus:
I want to be known for living to help other people fulfill their dreams and ambitions in life.
And how do I do that? I help people. I build a business that allows me to reach into other peoples lives and bless them with the resources to do great things.